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My First Love-Letter....at 15 !!

It was early sunday morning....i opened the door....my eyes scanned the room from one corner to the other....noone had come yet. I took a seat. It was complete silence in there. I could even hear the "lub-dubs" of my heart. I was getting nervous....as i took out a piece of paper from between the pages of my chemistry book....it read -


Dear ........ ,

It has been more then one year since we know each other....i know that i should have told this to you before....but i never had the courage. I Love You a lot. I cant resist myself from thinking about you....and only you all the times. My eyes search for you everywhere. I keep looking at you in the classes....i become nervous when you talk to me....nothing seems to be the same. I smile without ne reason. I wake up at 4 to atend the class at 7. I like everything about you. I love you. I love you. I love you.

" If you are , then I am

You are my beginning , you are my end "

No grammar errors, no cuttings...it was the best handwriting I could write in....and the best piece of poetry i ever wrote....everything seemed to be perfect but still i was uncomfortable with some thing. I was going to tel her my feelings today. I was getting more and more nervous as i finished reading my first love letter....what if she said 'No'? ....what if she loved smone else? ....I used to talk to her as a friend but after this letter .... evrything's gonna chng.....what if i even lose her as a friend? Like this a hundred thoughts were running thru my mind when i heard the door open.

It was she....i was not prepared....she came so early. Our eyes met....I said 'hi', but she didnt reply. May be she didnt hear me....or may be she didnt want to talk to me. Whatever may be the case....I was determined to give her this letter today.

I was about to go to her but then the door opened again. Her friend came.

I stopped....I didnt want ne of her friend to know about this ....I had to delay my mission....but i wanted her to know about my love....so i decided to talk to her after the class.

One by one....other students came and class started. Every minute seemed so long. I couldnt concentrate on nethng dat day....i just wanted that class to end....and when it actually did....i was nervous like nethng. I went outside....she was standing with her friends in a group. This was the time. I had to go. "Lets do it now", i said to myself as i walked towards her.

"hi", i said....a bit louder this time.

"hiiieee", she said. Her voice sweet like a child.

"Can u show me ur notes of today's class....i have a small doubt", i said .....actually...i had a plan to take her notes and return them with the letter.

"ya....sure", and she gave me the copy. I put my letter in between and returned her the notes. I didnt wait to see her reaction....i was nervous....i walked fast towards the gate and left the coaching. It was only after reaching home that I relaxed. I was happy. It was like a big achievement. "Yes" or "No"....i would come to know about it soon....for now I was really happy.

Phone Call

My heart filled with new hopes as I saw her name blinking on the screen of my cellphone. She called me at last.

"Hello", I said.

"Hi , When r u coming here?", she asked.

"Well....probably....by the end of dis month. Y did u ask dear?", I talked in my usual way since I was almost sure that she wanted me back in her life. It had happened many a times before.... trivial issues leading to bigger ones. But the next morning we wer always together. We never stayed without talking to each other for more than a day. It was only this time that almost 15 days passed without a single call or msg!!

But there was no reply from the other side.

"Y did u ask dat sweetheart?", I asked again.

She stil didnt reply.

I took the initiative one more time and said ,"Come on Darling....Say something atleast. I wil be coming back soon. What are you doing this weekend? We can go out to your fav.....", I couldnt complete as she interrupted. "I am busy this weekend. I just called you to ask for a favour".

"What favour...??", I said....quite hurt by the way she talked.

"I want all my letters and photographs back the next time you come here...Please dont forget.", her voice seemed emotionless.

I was shocked....couldnt believe that after 15 days of tears and broken heart....She didnt want me back. She just wanted her leters back....not me.

"Ok....I will remember. Nething else?", I tried to talk normal....another useless effort I must say.

"No....nothing else. Bi....and please dont forget"

"Sure. Bi.....I love you", I said. But she didnt hear. She had already kept the phone down.

PROLOGUE

“dobara phone nahi karna mujhe...bi” (Dont ever call me again) ......she said........nd I never did. ....but m still waiting for her....I know dat someday she wil cum bak....